My Deep

Building tears
Building fears
Building paths to the darker places
Burying all beneath the rolling waves
So I dive in
Every drop within I have made
Below the surface I swim

I am standing in my ocean
There in my deep
There will I be
Why have I been so blind
To all that is hidden
There in my deep

Floating from the silt come the questions
He or she
One or them
Where is love
Alone and yet surrounded by my darkness
Not even the lunar tide light
Dares to come in here
Pulled apart, dragged below
Things I never wanted to know
Parts of me
Buried deep
Surface now for me to see
Driving me to insanity
Nowhere to cling
Within my depth I am drowning
Truth surrounds and breaks the lies I am living

Where the dark reaches dwell
There in my deep
There will I be
Why have I been blind to all that is hidden
There in my deep

It is illusion
Shattering all that I am
What to believe
What to reflect
What to embrace
Where am I
No path within this watery vastness
All is dark
All is heavy
No breath to take

Struggling to the surface
Breaking into the tide
Swept away by the ride
Struggling to hold on

And there I see the path
Upon the surface breaking through the dark
A hand, a breath
I am alive
Now I know
My ocean
My dark
My depth