To forget

From the heat
It snakes
Up
My within
To my without

Like the smoke
From fire
Twisting
All around
Up my chimney

Blowing ever more
Upwards gorge
Heaving
Rolling insides
Fighting to expell

The monster within
Clawing free
Release
Roaring pain
Coming from me

I can't stop
The fear
Horror
The sickness
Of trust betrayed

But when seen
The monster
Me
Or them
In truth remain

It matters not
It ends
Planted
It's revenge
Of my mind

Moving on alive
But damaged
Torn
Wanting oblivion
Gaining refined memory