The lie

The lie that you are
You hide it so well
Under the silver light
Behind the knowing glance
Words on a page
Making fast the trap
The pretence of involvment
You attract
You ensnare
You deceive
Saying one thing
Doing another
And all the while
Stirring the pot
And standing back
To smell like a rose
United with a worm
No more will your thorn burrow
No more will your worm infect
With the strength of truth
By the gift of grace
I know what you are
I pity you
I know where you are headed
Saved from your lies
I have only to forget

Summer afternoon

Like gold
The light caresses
A gilding of edges
A glow of beauty
The kiss of afternoon
The hum of bees
Drifting with the seeds
Floating in the breeze
A lovely moment
The touch of the divine
To renew my day

Thorn

I can feel it move
I can feel it slide
Exiting the wound it made
The thorn has been pulled free
Left with a hole
Small but painful
Now it can drain
Now it can be tended
Now it can heal
The poison dispersed
Absorbed in my veins
No longer a threat
The wound is empty
A hole
Now it can heal

Ancient darkness

I wrote this awhile ago. It is a song about an ancient Greek diety called Hecate. She is a very dark diety with alot of strenth and madness in her myths. Even in modern times crossroads are viewed with trepedation. She is why. She is one of the reasons we are warned not to look behind us as we leave dark places.This reminds me of the story of Lot's wife. She just had to look back. She was turned into the pillar of salt. Harsh lesson. But, we spend so much time looking back and mourning the things we have done that we wish we could change. After awhile this can dry us up inside. The darknesses of what we have left behind should often stay where they are. In the past.


And the wind blows
Darkened path before me
In the night hour
I find myself alone
To the crossroads
I will travel swiftly
Through the stillness
I am finally home

And the night breaths
Darkened stillness fallen
Pulses tremble
I find myself at home
I feel you touch me
Majesty revealed
Within the dark hour
I am not alone

Shimmering veil
Parting now
Drawing me into you deeper
Madness thrives
Chaos drives
Hounds they bay
Guardian Queen
Ancient being
Demanding my attendance
I submit
Marked for life
Daughter evermore

And the willow sighs
Darkened shadows waiting
She caresses me, I am finally home
Handing me my key
I need to find the lock
I stand up and
I am not alone

And the hounds cry
Darkened spirits follow
Fear makes me run now, I am not alone
Down the dark path
Weaving through the forest
Light through a window
I am finally home

Shimmering veil
Parting now
Drawing me into you deeper
Madness thrives
Chaos drives
Hounds they bay
Guardian Queen
Ancient being
Demanding my attendance
I submit
Marked for life
Daughter evermore
Daughter evermore
Daughter evermore

The comfort of you

And the morning comes
No trumpet heralding dawn
No brilliant sunrise
Rooted again in the same place
Where once I was
And am still
The day changes
The moon has grown a little more
Yet here I stay
When will release come
Quiet beauty envelopping
The twisting path layed once again
Before my feet
I await
Depairing
Hoping
To feel it once more
The comfort of you

Overtaken

Unable to channel the inspiration
It swirls around in a storm
Maddening in its strength
No direction to be found
What to do with all of this
So much room for opportunity
If inspiration cannot be funneled
It will be stale
Dead
Allowing the divine to speak through me
The touch of light and shadow
Shaping my life
Guiding my path
My dreams made real
Inspiration is the touch of the Divine
Demanding expression and life
Living the beauty that throbs within
How hard to birth that light
The struggle and glorious power
Inspiration is born
The form unknown
The strength near to pain
Oh how will it take form
How will I live my dream
Pulling and drawing the beauty
From within to without
Drawing on the cloak of light and possibility

Normal

When all else falls away
The longing deep within makes known
Looking back at possiblities gone
Regrets and dreams comingle
Where are the opportunites of old
Where have they all gone
Before me now only plodding normal
Nothing shining, nothing glittery
The future once so unknown
The path once twisted delightfully
Now all is straight
No more pitfalls to navigate
The loss of the unexpected
The gain of stability
How in my love for chaos has this happened
Where did the magick go
Twilight has faded and night is over
Dawn is past and the light is all around
So much possibility
Yet no more surprises
Where has the mystery gone
Where did the magick go
It must be found to unlock the gate
Leading to the garden
Where the seeds of growth are planted

Peace obtained

And like a mantle it comes
Gently floating upon my shoulders
Unseen yet tangible and strong
Smoothing the tangled web within
Fears are eased away
Apprehension dissolved
From without my skin
From within my soul
As sure as your love
Comes your promise and your strength
Knowing I am secure
Knowing I am protected
Knowing I am going to be fine
Your peace comes

Victorious!

With her arms flung to the heavens
She stands atop her mountain
Flush with victory
From the drowning waves of emotion has she fought
Up the crumbling stairs she has crawled
Into the ruined city she rose
The ghosts from her past have all departed
There is silence
A beautiful sanctuary awaits
With her arms flung to the heavens
The fires of light burn upon her brow
The torch that was within, now shines without
She has been blessed

Fria

Rockaby my love
Let my cradle gently embrace
Close your eyes to the world
Close your eyes to strife
The light you found within
Burns bright
It burns strong
Illumination sought
That path you have found
Now take a moment
My darling love
To just be
To release breath
Climb into my barge
And let me row you along
Continue the path
For now you have glimpsed joy
Happiness awaits
To give you rest
And help you find that key to continuing

Tangible truth

I look around me and see beauty and love
The space we share is support
I sit in contentment letting life unfold
Then inspiration hits and I jump up with joy
Oh together we will learn
Together we will grow
I begin to plan, I begin to move
I reach to the shelf grasping for knowledge
Our shelves are empty though
When did that happen?
I thought we had many books
I am concerned, but you say not to worry
Okay
I turn to the desk
That old place of study
Where once I remember we sat
Learning in joy
As I grasp at the chair to sit myself in
It wavers and becomes like smoke
Drifting away
What is happening?
The desk wavers too and smoke drifts up
I begin to turn around asking
Dear one, where is everything going?
What everything?
You ask
Those things weren't really there
I just let you think they were
My books are kept on other shelves
Your chair was nice but not nice enough for me to help make it real
I am shocked
I am wounded
Everything I saw
All the beauty and love
It is not there
I stand in an empty room
Berrated for assuming that I was good enough to share anything
The lies, the deceit
Are layed at my door
It is my fault for assuming
I saw things that were never there
Nothing was their fault
They never actually said they were there
They just pretended and I believed them
It is my own fault
In the empty room I sit
Surrounded by truth
And this I can touch
This I can feel
This I can hold
My strength
I was always here
Ready to love
Ready to be loved
They were the lie
I am cleansed in truth
I am strong in self worth
I was always here
They never were

The Dance

There once were two sisters. Their names were Terra and Luna. Born in the fire of creation, their birth was such an ordeal, they were born fused together. Their Father, the burning star, loved his daughters very much. Everyday, he would look in on them, and give them his warm embraces.

Over time, the burning star's daughters grew. From a small, clean slate, they began to grow. Beautiful skins of honey they developed. Long flowing hair of pale coppers and greens. Bones of strength and beauty grew long. From their fertile breasts flowed the waters of life. And as the life sustaining waters pooled around them, a curious thing began to happen. Life, individual of the sisters began to live and grow upon their bodies. With the warm embraces of their Father to support it, and the waters of the sisters to sustain it, life grew and evolved. Terra and Luna were overjoyed at the small creatures that lived upon them. So deeply touched were they, that they gave of themselves to protect and nourish their children. The sisters became mothers.

One day, a terrible fight errupted in the heavens. Unaware of the enmity between many of their siblings, the sisters did not know of the terrible disagreement until it was too late. They could neither avoid, nor stop the missile that broke loose. It hit with a ferocious force. Terrible pain assaulted the sisters. With an unimaginable sound, they were torn apart. The missile seperating what their birth had joined together. Into the heavens flew Luna, as Terra looked on in horror. With instinct and love as her guide, Terra grabbed her sibling before she flew too far. But Luna was heavy. Terra had not the strength to pull her back to her. The strenth of Terra's love, the strength of her heart, the flow of her blood in her veins, kept Luna close. But they were forever seperated.

And oh, what a horror to Luna, when she looked upon herself reflected in her sister's waters, she discovered she had lost her outer self. No more skin of honey tones, no more flowing hair in the breeze, no more waters of life. Only the bones remained. The skeleton of who she had been. Lost as she was to her sister's embrace, she was now also naked in her solitued. Her dear children were gone also, still with Terra living on the fertile plains of her sister's curves. Alone and unprotected, Luna struggled. She tried to grab for her old self. Putting out her fingers, she plunged them into the waters, trying to pull them to her. When that didn't work, she went to her Father. "I am so cold, so alone, I cannot feel your warmth any longer Father". For a long while the burning star thought. In his wisdom, he came up with a plan. He would teach his daughters to dance. So they began. "Spin, my daughters, spin in dance". And so they spun. Terra spun in her dazzling array of colors, and her father embraced her in her dance, escorting her along her path. Then came Luna, following in Terra's steps. Luna spun toward her Father. He released Terra and took hold of Luna. Once again, after what seemed an eternity, Luna felt the warm embrace of her Father. Luna spun and spun, and her Father shared her path for a time, until he let her go and took hold of her sister once again. Around and around they went.

The creatures on Terra looked on in amazement. Never had they seen anything so beautiful as the dance of the burning star with his daughters. The creatures were happy that Luna had once again been embraced by her Father's light. For they missed her presence, and longed for her. They were surprised and saddened to see how naked she was up in the heavens. They were sad that their Luna should go around in such a cold and grey state. "And look", they said, "even her waters, those that came from her miss her, for they flow to and from her, as though trying to find a way to rejoin her in her heavenly home. The waters rise so high to try and meet her, but they cannot fly high enough. Oh it is so sad", they say. "All that is left are her bones. No soft skin to walk upon, no waters to drink, no flowing hair to sit beneath. She is now the bone Lady, our Luna. Clothed in light, she is the beauty of the heavens, radiant in her nakedness."

Luna heard the the creatures. Up in her vast heavens, she heard their words and felt their love. "Perhaps", she thought, "I am not so ugly and bare. Perhaps, I can still be beautiful without all the adornment I left behind. My creatures, my children, they still love me and look to me, though I no longer nourish or support them. Perhaps I can inspire them through my dance, through my light in the dark, rather than through my body as I did before." Terra heard her sister's musings, and her heart broke for her beloved sister; so alone and without the warm trappings she had always had. Tears of sadness fell from Terra's eyes. Then, a curious thing happened. Wherever a tear fell, a plant would bloom. And to Luna, would the plant bow. At even the smallest glanse from her would the plant burst from it's seed and grow toward the heavens, as though trying to reach her.

And so time wore on. The plants bloomed and multiplied, all loyal and reverant toward their beloved Luna. The waters upon Terra still flowed to the rythm of Luna's graceful dance. And the creatures upon Terra multiplied and grew. They continued to honor their Terra and they looked to their Luna in the heavens for her inpiration through her graceful dance and her luminous changes. The creatures taught their children, who taught their children, who taught their children. And the two sisters, so close in body and fused in love, continued their dancing, growing in love and warmth under the encompassing love of their Father.

The path

What is betrayal?
What is falling into temptation?
That path
Like any other
So easy to begin
Achievements are recognized
It feels so good
Approval, respect, and status
You abilities, your work
Deserve these things
When others walk your path
They too will receive
But you forged that way
So easily you began
A master
You are proclaimed
Power is granted
By those who aspire
To walk your path
They must follow your steps
For you forged that way
But who are you really?
Master
Or idol
Do you guide
Or do you mold
The difference so slight
The faith of your fellows
You are human as them
Enlightment is not yours to bestow
We all have possibility
What is betrayal?
You mold
What is falling into temptation?
Accepting the lie of your superiority
Return to humility
Climb away from yourself
Respect with awe
The possibility in others
Do not fall
Please stop and see where you are!
Do not fall
For you will never deem anyone good enough
To help you out

Inspiration of Caravanserai

As the tune took form
I strained to hear
The notes, the harmony
My heart was pulled

I can feel the summons
A dancer's call
My heart, my soul
Is aching to follow

The pipes of Pan
Divine music plays forth


The shinning moon lit my way
Home in darkness
A cloudless night

The drums began
A pounding rhythm
Echoing within my soul
Her voice entrancing

To notes like love
Tears rolled down my face

To hear a song that touches your soul
A gift of highest value

My body swayed within my seat
I longed to escape and dance

I could feel the dark breath of desert winds
The dunes were surely all around
Not fields of earth, but hills of sand
Surround me on my journey

My trusty camel, a ruddy beast
Dances forth
Its trail so winding and long

Until I reach home
Where the whole world awaits

I leave my beast
And through the gateway I stride
Into a bazaar of wondrous treasures
I see all with new eyes

I call the musicians to play it once more
That my love may share in my joy
The tune that captures my heart and soul
Wraps around us with a sigh

Venom of life

The color of fallen autumn leaves
The two entwined and danced
Their tiny tails so musical they were
Shaken they make their warning
Deadly venom lay heavy within
Through folding needles it came
While I was healing a fallen one
Not knowing they swam within
A bloody pool of water I had
Within my bowl to use
To try and aid those in need of a cure
I had no time to observe
That the orange of autumn’s fallen leaves
Had crept within my bowl
And gently, so gently
They bit my hands
Delicate webbing marred by their punctures
Now venom flows within my veins
Death should be near by
Yet all I feel is the need to aid
Those waiting for my help
I grow stronger in life
Death comes not
The deadly bite kills not
For me it serves to strengthen my life
The energy I give to others returns
On the deadly bites of those two serpents

Wheels of change

I never was and now I am
Formed and molded
Honed and framed
Roots within foundations
I have been made
Nothing before but now I stand

With your lightest touch
I grow
I blossom
From deepest dark
To blinding light
I open and unfurl

Dankest soil releases my bonds
Bound no more
In freedom I reign
Flying to great heights
I soar and take wing
Only landing in perfection
That place of destiny

Once again I am gone
Death removes all knowledge
I alone know of me
To that I cling as the darkness falls
In dreams I exist
That land of everything
Monsters and fairies and dragons and forever
There will I bloom until once again
I never was, now I am

Walking the night

And like a mantle of depth
The night hour comes
All manner of possibility waits
With a sigh and release
The time is acheived
A place of forever and dreams
Courting folly and wisdom
One in each hand
The path not straight but curved
Walking between the row upon row
Fields of towering seed
A bright glimmer ahead
In the night hour it shines
Only there to ever be seen
Upon a wave on a shore
Awaiting she that walks
The brightness stands
A sentinal in the night
A message clutched tight in its hand
Take of this light
Return not in the dark
My lantern ever lit for you
From now to forever
Will I stay with you
Until my bridge you cross
To dance with my forever
I am the turth that is here
Always was
Always am
Alwys to be
In the night hour I wait

Musings

Like breath exhaled
The wind whispers
Speaking of journeys taken
Of sights seen

The hand of him
Guiding it's path
Seemingly random
Yet every turn forseen

And like the wind
My life
Guided and known
What path and where
He knows when
His breath of life
My journey